am i a mad hatter? ?

I sit here in this rabbit hole wondering how it is that i have arrived here? This bump on my head may explain a little. But withball the strange happenings Im not quite sure that is all. when i walk i feel as though i am floating in mid airlike i need tied down. Its a good feeling. and when the strange thinga happen its all surreal. its like my brain is on over load when i stand my head spins its as though im standing still and the world is spinning around me i watch its some how magical. sometimes i dont feel like me. like im looking at me from outside ibwatch me move around and its strange. some times all inwant isbmy mommy to save me! sometimes i want no one. in thoes times my head spins watching anything for sometime. i spin really fast and cant stop. thats when i dont like my wonderland. dizzy dizzy dizzy a never ending merry go round. it sometimes makes me nautious. will i come back enlightend like alice? or will i be just another MAD HATTER?